I need a letter to a judge

My name is Amanda B., I'm 30yrs old and have a 10 yr old son together with Joshua Smith (defedent). My fiance and I meet in Jr High School and began dating in HighSchool. We are going on strong and have been together more then 15yrs and have a family of our own. I need a letter wrote to the judge requesting he please take into consideration leniency when sentencing my fiance for the charges of violating a no contact order, which was put in place by the courts. I have never wanted a no contact order in place, I've never felt the need for one nor do I feel scared in any way by the man who is charged with violating a no contact order, 5 counts of it for making calls to me while he was in jail with a no contact order between us. Which is what lead us to the current situation we're dealing with now. I would like the judge to know and point out that there are a few reasons which led him and I to have contact with each other even though the state had imposed this no contact order. 1st It has been difficult trying to be a family and raise our son up with a no contact order hanging over us. There was contact made to talk about our sons parenting plan and needs in order to allow our son to be able to see both his parents while we are dealing with this court case. I also want to let the judge know that I was recently diagnosed with a terminal illness and given an approximate of 1-2yrs left. I am not only dealing with the stresses of my illness and diagnosis but also having to go through it alone and being told I can't even talk with the man I've been with for over 15yrs, half of my life, and who is my family and have a child in common with. I want to be able to raise our son together like a family should but haven't been able to do so with a no contact order put in place by the courts. I want the judge to know and to please take into consideration why we made contact with each other and that given the short period of time I have left I only want to make the best of it and be able to spend my time around and with my family and the man I've been with for over half my life. I want to include that the defedent is sorry and takes responsibility for himself. I want to explain that I'm not giving any reasons or excuses to say that that makes it ok to break the law, I only ask that the judge consider our situation and take leniency when sentenceing. If possible I would like to ask the judge to be able to drop the no contact order so I can spend as much time as possible with my son and fiance(defedent) before my time here is up. I want the judge to know that when a person is told they are sick and have a terminal illness, that gives a whole new meaning and insight to the term "life is to short". I understand it's not right and doesn't give anyone an excuse to believe that it's ever ok to break the law and violate a no contacted order for any reason but that the judge please take into consideration why it happened and what lead us to were we are now. When we violated the contact order it wasn't done out to total disregard of the law but because of the need to be able to care of our son together and the harsh reality of knowing my time here is limited and all I wanted was to be allowed to contact the defedent. I don't want to spend the rest of what time I do have here, alone. We've been together for over half my life, I love him and he loves me. We both made mistakes just like anyone else has but we've always managed to make it through anything together. I want to ask the judge to please consider taking leniacy when sentencing the defedent as I don't have much time left. I want to give my son the best that I can and raise him with his family like it should be.